Perspective

I am totally exhausted tonight, so might not be able to organize my sentences very well. I had a very challenging day and feel like I have endured many rounds in a boxing ring. I'm not sure who won. I feel like a dead mommy, so I guess they did. It's not that they aren't good kids, it's just that they have hearing problems so I have to repeat myself many times. It's not that they aren't bright and talented, it's that they are LOUD! We actually had to create a new rule: Don't SING with your mouth full. They were singing in Latin--you'd think I'd be proud. Our family home evening consisted of me yelling for them to STOP BEING WILD! I finally put them to bed early because I thought that would be better than me losing it.

I was just crawling into my bedroom feeling so sorry for myself that my husband is away again (or should I say, still...?), when I thought I would take a peek at DeLynn's blog. Suddenly my burden seemed lighter and I felt an abundance of gratitude that my companion is still very much alive. He deeply cares and wishes that he were here. I can text him anytime and talk to him every day. When he is in town, he works very hard to ease my burden. I don't know what I would do without him. I can actually feel his prayers on my behalf.

I guess we just carry on, hopefully having a chance for renewal as often as we need it. I did laugh today, though. I got up early to check Brandon and then thought I would read scriptures (at 5:30 am--might as well, I wasn't going to sleep again.) I read Proverbs 31:10. "Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies." It goes on to list all the wonderful attributes of a virtuous woman. It even stated that she wakes in the night to provide for her household. I could relate! I then imagined where I might be if someone were trying to find this virtuous woman. I just might be curled up in bed with my pillow over my head trying to catch a few more moments of sleep, or maybe hiding in my closet trying to make a quick phone call, or in my bathroom for a moment of peace and quiet. It made me smile. Hopefully if the Lord did need to find me, I'd be singing at the piano or lovingly reading to the kids. :)

Hopefully I can live up to the descriptions in the scriptures and be there for those kids who need me. Hopefully when they find me again, I'll be the mother they need. Until then, I'll just be grateful for my own set of challenges and pray for the others around me who have even greater burdens.

You inspire me, DeLynn. Thank you.